Little Cat, I think what you are describing is what I should have done with my life. I think that is what I was meant to do but it has not ended up being the path I am on as I got married when someone asked me even though he had never been my boyfriend, just my friend. An example of my child like nature that I didn't think about what marriage would mean for my life or whether it was right for me. I just said yes without thinking and now the adult consequences are hitting home. I just go through life doing whatever it is someone else wants me to do so I think it is great that you have done what you know is true to yourself.