Hi Iny,
I just wanted to say something to you, I found what you said really heart rending, not offensive, but those feelings I recognise and know them so well. That longing and need. Those are real feelings, and your love for your dad is real, its really difficult to access and act on that sort of love, because ......... well, how do you act on it without damaging yourself? I agree, with whats been said, the anon groups can be really helpful. Thers this thing they talk about, - 'detachment with love', it helps you to seek the highest good, ie, what is the really most beneficial thing you can do or say, or not say, in the whole circummstances??

I havent posted here before, but having read your post, felt moved to say something back to you.

riverx