Gotta say, I'm really jealous. I so wish I could just start this stuff. I don't care how but it would be nice to not be on the med that you can't mix with it and being held up for weeks and weeks. My pdoc has yet to get back to me. I was sure she would today since I haven't heard from her since Sunday. She was supposed to email the hospital dr about admitting me then. I somehow don't think that takes a whole week; I think she forgot me. Again. I love my pdoc but I'm getting really frustrated with her. I'm going to wind up having my therapist call and tell her that I am coming apart at the seams to get this kick-started and I hate doing that.

I also hate being mad at someone who has repeatedly gone way above and beyond but who is failing me in a bad way right now. She didn't even get back to me to approve valium for sleep so I'll go on not sleeping until 4-5 AM.

I am out of patience and I so wish I could just start it and move on.

I hope tonight goes well for you.