Hi ishopeatsea...

I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time right now. I wish I had some great advice for you... but I'm not sure that I do.

It's not really considered good to just ignore your feelings and soldier on with things, as I'm sure you understand. Usually, we have the feelings that we do for good reason. They're meant to help guide us towards better decisions, or so I've heard .

As to whether it will cause you *harm*, I don't think anyone can say without understanding what you're going through.

That said, I wonder if you're aware that therapy can cover a LOT of different things. Sometimes, in therapy, people work on things that are deep and painful, which can make dealing with school/life difficult. Other times, they might work on easier subjects... such as learning skills to get through the day. Some times therapists can be supportive and help you feel like your load is lighter.

It depends on the therapist, and on what you want to accomplish while you're there. You have a great deal of say in terms of what you talk about and what you choose to work on.

So, I wonder if there's a way for you to talk to a counselor at your school, and maybe get some support in a way that feels helpful, and like it makes your last year of school easier rather than more difficult? You could be very upfront, explain to them that things are difficult and that you don't want therapy to make school more difficult for you, and see if they feel like they can be helpful?

Do you think it might be worth one visit, to check them out (assuming you have a therapist or counselor at your school) and see if they might be be able to offer something that might make things a little easier?

It's just a thought. As I said, I don't have any great answers... mental health is hard for everyone, and it often feels like there's *never* a good time to really stop and deal with it.

I wish you the best of luck, and I hope you're able to get the help you deserve!