I know people think it's a bad idea, but the job is permanent and I know working makes me happy. I need to feel productive, like I'm doing something for the world. When I got it I really needed it. I was down and out and talking even on meds to the spirits surrounding me. Now I'm more stable emotionally.

Yes I have a little fear but I do become disabled within 5 years of giving it up I can restart it. I'll be one less person taxing our overburdened system. Making room for someone who really needs it like I once did.