I guess I don't really see the point in conversing with most people nowadays.

I put in my 2 weeks notice 2 weeks ago so today will be my last day at work and I guess I feel like i'm isolating myself in a way again. I tend to be prone to being depressed and isolating myself.

Another story to go with this- Around Halloween I had friends trying to reconnect with me saying I should go hang out with them at a Halloween party. I decided to say no; that I would be busy at work, which I was, but I probably could have tried to reschedule. I didn't though. I didn't really want to go but back then I actually worried about avoiding them.

Though lately I feel like I don't care.

I don't want to see them. So my socializing mainly comes from online people which I don't seem to get much joy out of them anymore. I don't know if socializing with most online people gives me any joy like it used to. Is it growing up or maybe I just feel like it's dull to me lately.

I started going out with an online girl 4 months ago so I usually only talk with her now or a couple of others here and there. Usually just her. Only one I seem to care to talk to and others I just feel like it's a chore to talk to them. A chore to talk to most people because I feel low energy a lot of times.

Going to go see her in the beginning of February which is coming up so that will be a big thing for me to do. Never really gone on dates or really anything normal people do. Flying on planes and whatnot.

Wish I didn't get tired so easily. I mean I tend to think things are going pretty well for me right now but I guess depression isn't easy to live with.