I have seen a psychiatrist in the past -- guess I should've mentioned that -- but she didn't diagnosis me or anything. She said it sounded like I fit the criteria and just started suggesting medications. ...At least that's what I remember. I know if I had an official diagnosis, I would remember that. She told me to try some out and if I was bipolar, it would stabilize my moods. We ended up not going for it because a. my emetophobia was REALLY bad at the time, so I didn't want to risk side effects like nausea (I still don't, but getting to a point where I'd try the meds) and b. my dad was really adverse to it, since he doesn't trust psychiatrists and pharmaceuticals, despite being medicated himself.

I guess I could try visiting one again, but I'm afraid the same thing will happen. And I'm afraid to bring up the idea to my parents. I know they would be supportive, but as irrational it sounds, I'm just worried that if I keep bringing this up they'll get more annoyed and start liking me less. Hence why I try not to talk about it with, well, anyone. I love my friends and family, but somehow it always seems like they're patronizing me or mocking me even when they are being supportive. I'm sure that's just me projecting, but still.

TL;DR: I am ABLE to, I think, I just have to get the guts to ask my parents again. Or somehow see one secretly -- I'm eighteen, so I'm pretty sure I don't need parental consent.