This is exactly how I feel. I don't want to be a burden to anyone. I feel that if I can't be useful than I am worthless. I hide from family and friends when I am sad or anxious. I don't want my children to be afraid or worry about me. I am the go to person for many if I fall apart what will happen to them?? I feel ashamed to call T when I am having hurtful thoughts. I wait till I'm really sick before I call my doctor. I feel ashamed to ask my husband to take time to hold me. I don't want to be needy or a bother. I worry that my colleagues will find out about this side of me. I was taught to hide feelings of sadness and anxiety. I know its not right or good bUT I still do.