Hello Daystom I am sorry you are feeling so poorly. I too am riding up and down, some days OK at work and twice last week I had a depressive meltdown WHILE at work. Weekends are hardest for me, that's when my thoughts race and I can't accomplish anything.

From your description of your therapy session it sounds like you do have something that is hurting you that you want to get out but are unable... Something that you are "unable to scratch the surface". I think it is worth trying to get that out, it might be your path toward some wellness or at least doing better. Can you discuss with your T that there is something you are unable to talk about... Maybe they can help make you more comfortable. Or maybe try to find someone else, another T, who you are more comfortable talking to about this? Finding some way to get help with this issue might be a key.