Lately I've been going through something unusual for me. Before when I've hit depressive episodes I've been low and stayed low for a long time, almost every day.

For the last month or so, I'm been bouncing from severe depression maybe half the week to mostly ok the other days of the week. It's strange. Maybe still mildly depressed those days. My energy level is also bouncing around.
I've also been dealing with a lot of anxiety, some restlessness, and irritability. My brain ocassionally will not shut up. Strangely my sleep has been mostly ok. I think I'm only sleeping about 1-2 less hours per night than I was. I've started rocking and physically shakey the last couple days. In rolled the SH urges and SUI ideation. Feeling so overwhelmed...

Any input would be appreciated. Not sure what's going on or what to do.