ugh they're already drinking. this is going to be a long day. hope i have enough music to listen to while they play theirs for hours on end, and always the same songs over and over too. it happens almost every evening now. i'm sick of it.

so tired of feeling unheard. i tried to reach out to my mom again today, and she blew me off. it could have been unintentional, but i dunno, it seems to be happening more and more often lately. like, i'll say something along the lines of "i haven't been doing so well" and she'll say "oh, too bad" or something else half-hearted, and then go back to whatever she was talking about. my dad on the other hand couldnt give a frick, we never talk. i feel like i will have to do something drastic to get my point across. i feel invisible. people don't care unless it's convenient to them, not even your own parents.

aaand, there's the music. ****. same song they've been listening to over and over for the past 5 days. i'm going to break their ****ing computer.