Mental torture...yes feels very much like that sometimes. I've had a mixed episode before. What makes things different this time is the bouncing around. I don't know if it's like Latuda is trying to work and is jerking me along or what!!?? I just know I'm tired of it. I've nearly broken up with my boyfriend like 6 times because of how low I've been, that I feel all I can possible do it hurt him. Which is torture in itself. It's almost to the point where I should just talk to him about these feelings. That way if I loose my mind again and try to leave, he'll know that I don't really want to? Bah idk I just want to be normal.