One of my friends very often reminded me until I really knew it (and named my cat Elijiah as a reminder to myself) that Elijiah prayed to die and God didn't really even address that directly; he had him rest and eat and basically care for himself. The take home is supposed to be that it's ok to feel that way and that we're supposed to be gentle with ourselves when we do.

This is awesome! My preacher once told me that when Jesus was sorrowful unto death, that it could have meant he was thinking about it also. Just remember there are good times to be had watching kids and grand kids grow up. keep fighting the fight.