As I said earlier, I've discovered memories and experienced flashbacks later in life. I don't know what is true. Are these 'recovered memories' actual facts about my childhood?? Or was it something completely different. What is the absolute truth of my childhood experience? I may never know. But I do have strong physiological sensations when I think about my older sister and I've had flashbacks of her sexually abusing me. Someone said earlier that psychiatrists don't accept recovered memories later in life - why? Some other posts suggest that the trauma was so incredibly painful that it had to be 'buried' into the sub-conscious mind in order to survive. I think that is the case for me and I'm disappointed that my T does not believe me because it doesn't fit her narrow-view of how childhood sexual abuse should manifest in adulthood.

I'm not sure if others experience this, but i have a pervasive fear of everything in my life - whether eating, walking, driving, at work. I have a fear something catastrophic will happen when I do anything in life, like I will be re-abused like in childhood. Does anybody else experience this??

PH