Things have been feeling a lot worse lately, especially with the loss of unemployment checks. I have a serious loss of money right now. The financial situation is like desperate and gasping for air. This and everything is really getting to me.

I may have said some things in chat last night that maybe didn't exactly sound good. I don't know what to do anymore. I just saw my own T for the last time until I have money/insurance to pay him. I'm going to miss him, and I think he knows that.

I signed a release for my kid's T--who has a friend on the Board at the local homeless shelter. Guess what? <font color="red">I AM IN!!!</font> Tonight should be my first night. For some reason, at the shelter office they almost seemed to bend over backwards for me today when talking to them. Funny, they've never been like this before in my past with them, or with anyone else. Do you think my kid's T knowing me way too well and having a conversation with the staff there--and having a friend on the Board--may have shown influence? Hmmmmm???

It seems like everyone is talking about me going on psych meds. I've never been on any before, so I'm nervous about it. I know that I probably should, but I can't help but to be scared and cautious of it. There is even a possibility of applying for disability. (Hey, rhymed.) I'm kind of scared about life right now.