So,something amazing happened. I started to feel this nudge recently to consider learning to ride a bike. I at first thought no way back when the idea very first came to me because a guy who liked me rode a bike everywhere. I didn't think i'd ever do it,but that's when the idea first sort of i guess was planted in my mind.At the time,I thought it was kind of dorky,tbh and thought could a girl really bike ride around? Then,later when the idea started to nudge me,though I started seeing it later on as a great way to get in shape and get around and another way to be athletic.

The thing is,i'm agoraphobic. So getting around is not really easy for me. Now,after crazy emotional dramas in the past weeks,I've been thinking a lot about how to better myself. I'm currently trying to learn to drive now and have that as a goal because that felt like something i was nudged to,like it'd empower me to have that. Ok,so now a guy I turned to for the weeks during my emotional dramas,well he rides a bike,too. I wasn't sure i liked him,then realized i did,and well,now it may not work out,and that's fine but he's ended up inspiring me in various ways which is a gift i can take with me. I often end up becoming very inspired by guys i like and end up bettering myself from having known them. He somehow,well he rode his bike all the way to my place in the winter late at night and i don't live very close to him,and i thought that was kind of cute and romantic thinking about it in hindsight. It started to make me think riding a bike isn't dorky thinking about the people i know of who do. And,he is a very fashionable guy and it made me realize bike-riding can actually be kind of a fashion thing to do and has a child-like,youthful cool to it. I've been wanting to spend more time outside but with my agoraphobia,how exactly can i do that,right? I've wanted to find a way to get my body more in shape and this would do that as well. I've never met an overweight person who rides a bike.

I had all these limiting blocks to riding a bike but then the last few days started thinking maybe i could learn to ride a bike and then tonight just felt such a sense of calm about it. Thinking about all the freedom it could give me. Thinking because i'm too scared to take trains or walk,maybe this is safer. Thinking how it'd reminded of being a child again. I loooved riding my bike as a child.Thinking how economical it would be. Thinking how next time i want to go to a salon for example,instead of waiting on someone else's schedule to work around so they can bring me,I can just ride my bike. Like,this could be very life changing for me. All the newfound freedom,the increase in outside time i've been craving,financial savings,and weight loss and body sculpting. And,my support person/roommate has two bikes and he's already said i could have one. Two bikes just waiting for me. We had discussed him trying to teach me to ride the bike and go for a short bike ride together last summer since i don't even know how. I know it's easy,lol but it's just been so long and also my anxiety issues. There's just something about all this that feels really appealing to me now. This is why i feel love,like a sense of love for the person it may not work out with. I just feel he came into my life for a reason. I've felt so much of a sense of forward movement since he and i finally hung out again and realizing i like him. I've broken through personal barriers i had about things. My tastes and ideas about things feels invigorated and evolved now and now I am seriously thinking i may start doing this. It seems like a little thing,but it never felt right until just a few days ago for me to do it.

Does anyone else bike ride to get around? How do you like it? Any tips?