I don't, no. Therapist is hard to really get into and feels dreadful and annoying trying to attend to one and I stopped the meds awhile back.

I've tried the mental help route with doctors and what not. Medications and therapy. I have a hard time speaking at all in therapy and it feels like I am wasting my time and money. When it comes to going to doctors for meds it just feels like a giant money sinkhole which I don't have that much money. This country's health insurance is complete **** and not affordable. I always try working it out myself but of course that never ends it either. Nothing ends it. I don't know. I can't seem to want to much of anything it feels like at times and feel incredibly tired.

Was wanting to go to an actual doctor for a health checkup with the blood stuff. Last time I went to a doctor a bit ago the doctor told me I was crazy and should take my medication. I felt upset and wanted to cry at that reaction. Especially when they had multiple nurses come into the room with him, like 3-4, as if I was going to go berserk or something. Very upsetting to me because at the time I went to him I was having breathing difficulty and he told me that the physical problems I was having weren't real. I guess they weren't because they did go away on their own. They were actually panic attacks and I just couldn't realize it myself. I really needed someone to let me know that I wasn't dying and that everything was fine. Mentally at the time the panic attacks were something I wasn't quite aware of and they would feed off one another.