Thank you, Lazarus. I have no one to talk to about this. And I can't do the other things you mentioned.

I am in awful despair. I just spoke to my one and only friend and he seemed so distant and uninvolved with me. I can't tell my mother about what's happening because it's too much stress for her. And the only other person won't talk about it with me.

I'm just completely alone IRL. And I'm in this place, with so much clutter, and I can't get rid of the stuff without someone to help me. I need help organizing and carrying stuff out to the trash.

I keep thinking I want to go back to the past, when my best friend and cat were alive. I miss them so much.