Thanks, I know I am just being super paranoid. Normally I drink to escape the paranoia! I'm just done with throwing up every morning and feeling like **** all day. Mainly I just want to get healthier. Even though I prefer to abstain from meds (I feel like I do WORSE when I'm on meds, honestly) I am seeking out a therapist in my area just so I can have someone to talk to about my problems in life and find healthy ways to cope with them that don't involve antipsychotics, benzos, or alcohol.