((((((ab))))))) i know how you feel. a year and a half ago, i had my very first art exhibit. i couldn't feel excited about it. i wasn't able to feel joy, either. still unable to feel those. before, i would have been bouncing off of the walls. i understand how you feel with others around you. let me tell you something, we care. you're more than welcome here. i understand the financial troubles and insurance issues. know that one way too well.