My diagnosis is C-PTSD not BP, so I hope it's okay for me to respond.

Withdrawal from alcohol is one of the worst withdrawals someone can go through and I'm sorry you're having to deal with that.

AA doesn't work for me either, and there are not optional choices like Smart Recovery or Rational Recovery in my area , but I do realize that alcohol and I are not a good fit.

Therefore, I signed an agreement with my therapist that I would not drink while in treatment, and being someone who likes to keep their word, that has worked very well for me.

Perhaps it could for you too?

Wishing the best for you!

Sincerely,
Pfrog!