I am severely manic right now and for the past two days I have been full of rage. I have been trying to act normal and be welcoming to the new members for the past week. I can't deal with that right now. I am Bipolar type 1 I'm pretty sure (but I'm diagnosed Bipolar unspecified) I have been manic since before I went into the hospital last June but back then I hardly even noticed. I have severe mania and I am full of rage currently. I have been full of rage like this for the past 2 days and it seems to be getting worse. I want to hurt people and things and I need to go to the hospital but I am stuck in my apartment with important obligations that I cannot dismiss. I have to request the head manager in my apartment complex to get a patch of missing carpet replaced because I failed my housing inspection because of that and it needs to be replaced by the 4th of February. Because on the 4th of February is when they are doing my re-inspection to see if my carpet being patched up passes. And then if it passes I have to go to my re-certification appointment not long after that. So honestly with all my obligations that I have to take care of or I will lose my housing, I don't know what to do. And I took my night time meds including my Clonazepam and it doesn't even seem to really be helping. What do I do? I don't want to do something stupid like hurt someone . I can't go to jail, I have no criminal record at all and I want it to stay that way. Besides even if I do hurt someone it's because I'm not mentally all right here right now. What do I do, just stay in my apartment and not go out unless I'm taking my dog potty or to go to the office and request that they get my carpet repaired? Someone please help me I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt anyone or anything deep down. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!