Hi Lavender I'm sorry for your situation. I totally can relate, I always have to pretend around family. Everyone knows my situation but never asks me a simple "How are you doing". I have family members that just out right don't understand at all. My Dad told me I don't follow my Dr's treatments. I've tried everything, ECT 5 times, every med out there. Last year I put out $2000.00 to try Ketamine Infusions in NY, I have a Vagus Nerve Stimulator currently on, years of talk therapy. I've realized some of them will never get it but I don't know the secret to not letting it hurt. I understand though and I know the suffering you go through with the depression. I have to say your line about "I didn't ask to be born" I tell people all the time. Hang in there and feel free to write back, I hope you have any easier day today, take care.