Hi everyone, I'm Scott I've been dealing with my depression for 22 years. I can relate to all of you. I live in a prison, I get up try to do somethings but I don't do much at all. Somedays I shower and that's it. Lately I've been taking 5 -6 klonopin throught the day, not at once, just to go to sleep. When I'm asleep I don't feel the pain. I've been on disability for this for 22 years. I'm home alone all day and many days I feel like I'm going to loose it. Been through many shrinks and most of them don't get it or tell me they don't know what to do for me. I think about ended it everyday but I don't because I have 3 young kids and don't want to hurt them. I don't know I'm rambling, I dream that one day I'll get better but I don't think they day will ever come. Well try to have an ok day, take care.