No. T said something mean the last time I saw her so I can't approach her. Pdoc just changed my meds but doesn't know if it'll work. Oxazepam (a benzo) calms me down to the point I can wear clothes, but doesn't relieve the memories and thoughts and feelings and most of all, the screams. I hate hearing my own screams! I know it's not real, that it's a flashback, but it's horrible all the same.
Parents try to help, but don't know what to do.

I told my mum the orange blanket wasn't working. She apologized for leaving an orange blanket in my room - I thought she'd done it in hopes of it helping me, but it turns out she hadn't thought of the thought police and it was an accident. So she swapped the blanket and now I have a beige blanket instead.