i had a problem with a certain smell and taste that i will not say because i don't want to cause a trigger. it involved something intimate, and when i tried it for the first time ever since my abuse, i couldn't do it. in the morning, the memory of that event came rushing to me so strong that i found myself puking on the porcelain god. for months, i would be suddenly gagging for no reason, until i got this under control through therapeutics techniques i learned through therapy and self-help books. i still, to this day, cannot do this action because i will end up gagging and puking. i so understand this problem, and i know how weird it can be at times.