Hi Sinking

One more thought............again not really what you were asking sorry but I've seen posts on here where people have suggested specific books which have helped them A LOT with things they've been going through, I don't know whether that might also be a way to go???
Whether you could do a little research online for books on specific issues or authors which resonate with "where you are right now"..........for some connections, answers, ideas................???
Just a thought............