Monday I am suppose to meet with my sister and her T.
AS I have been her support and she has lived with me since March.
My parents passed away 6 years ago, 28 days apart. I took care of them , while she was off getting high and drunk.
I was health care proxey for both. My Mom I did at home as most of you know this. My Dad was in the hospital, but I decided no tubes. Well he decided that before , I just followed his directions.
Then last year we had to take care of my father in law. Same thing.
There is not a day goes by that I do not see thier faces in my head as they passed on.
My sister was never there because she was doing coke and drinking. She was ill too. She still is but has stopped the drugs and booze.
She at times precives me as the bad person. Because I really do not know why. Only that I am hurt by this.
Any way I am not sure what to say to her T. All this brings everything back up.
Yes i am mad she was not there, yes i am mad I have to take care of her,Yes I would do all these things again.
So it leaves me I do not know where.
They say the truth will set you free, but at what cost. I hurt her, or I stay silent and keep it inside. Just venting I guess. And scared.
As always I will go in as the strong sheep. Do whats needed for her. Pray they help her.
In the mean time it leaves me still being the strong one. LOLOLOLOL
And i guess if you want the truth , lost in the field hoping I find me out there.
Forgot the important part. She does not remember when we were little. I do..............................I tell her the good parts. Keep the bad hidden.