was diagnosed with anxiety back in 2012 when I was 17 ( I'm 21 now) .. ever since then I've been having horrible intrusive thoughts, of things that I would never EVER do in my life. ..(and other anxiety symptoms) but with time they became less & less because I knew they were just intrusive thoughts and nothing more then that, So they wouldn't bother me as much as they did at first. I also always had a BIG fear that I was going crazy back then, but I got over thinking that I was going crazy and that it was just my anxiety making me feel like that...

So the reason I'm writing this post is that .. about 3 weeks ago something weird happened to me.. after finishing watching a show with my husband I had a really weird thought come to my mind which was that I imagined myself as one of the characters in the show ( maybe because I was thinking about them? ) not sure why but...that night I TOTALLY freaked out because it was a random thought or "imagination" that was .. let's say involuntary and something I don't remember ever doing before... so I burst out crying because the thoughts that I'm going crazy started again and this time even worst

Ever since that thought I can't stop thinking about it and the worst thing is that now everytime I watch tv I feel like I'll start imagining myself as some characters & sometimes I actually do it, beause I try not to think about it and as soon I tell myself not to do it, I do it no matter how hard I try not to ... and by that I mean I'll imagine myself like having their looks and facial expressions.. which gets me REALLY scared and all I could do is cry.

I have two wonderful kids and a husband that loves me dearly. I love my life and there's nothing else I would ever want, then to always be with them and be the best mother and wife I could ever be..so it breaks my heart even thinking that I might be going crazy and that I will end up in a crazy house or something :'(

I've been searching up and down the internet for something like what I'm experiencing but I don't find exactly what I'm looking for, which makes me feel even more crazy. It's gotten to the point where I don't know what to do and feel uneasy . At first I thought it's OCD but I don't really know, maybe I'm thinking too much about it?

What can this be? & how can I stop having these disturbing thoughts or whatever it is? .. Please help