NO surprise! Detached Personality maybe because u seem to have had a tough upbining, or is that the way u see it? Of course depression, disassociation, the list goes on and lots of therapy to get off the Personality D/O.
All that being said, I'm sorry your life has been on a ice skid down hill most of your life. BUT WE ALL MAKE CHOICES. Make the choice to take care of yourself by being test to check all problems may be having,
Don't be embarrassed. I'm a therapist and had to suck it up and go in! It's not that bad but most of all I broke down, went to see my own therapist and got better. Don't think that once you've gone through therapy that life will be all roses and puppies. It won't. U will have a plan and plenty of times fail but each time u get up, maybe go back to your therapist (been there did that) and "talk" some more. Make sure u have the right psychotherapist!