To be a little bit more forthcoming... This particular case isn't someone I want to get away from, it is someone I would like to be closer to.

He's very friendly, we share a lot of interests and have bonded over that, I've been training him and I enjoy working with him, and we've even had some time together strickly as friends outside of work.

But now it is serving to remind me how lonely I am that I don't have someone like him as someone special in my life, and the depression is making me isolate myself from him and my other coworkers, and then I get jealous when I see him talking to other people because the depression makes me think unreasonable thoughts, and it is a big vicious cycle.

And although I've been open about my situation with my manager and my boss, I certainly can't let this specific bit of information leak to them (I'm suprised they haven't figured it out but I guess I've been hiding it well... or I've been such a mess overall that it blends in with everything else) which is why I'm hoping I can find a T and someone professional to discuss this with.

It's been eating me up inside though so I thought maybe I should be honest about it here. I hope that wasn't a mistake.