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Originally Posted by ciderguy
Good morning, Angelique,
It looks as if the trigger code either doesn't work with Tapatalk or just doesn't work, the latter being my experience.
It looks as if you made that last post around midnight, my time. I don't think that I need to tell you that you need to make a call if you even get close to suicidal ideations, do I?
I have similar desires of wanting to return to the past, back to the times when I experienced happiness, love and warmth. The same feelings that I have during a psychotic episode most of the time.
Last night I went through another time loss but I was able to check the cameras this time! I seemed to be sleeping most of the time but I opened my iPad four times and went into the bathroom once. If nothing else, the video was comforting – I didn't do anything dangerous.
Today I'm going to look for affordable "spyware" for my iPad. Two cameras record that I'm using the device and one camera barely show the screen but the screen area is blown out by the light of the screen.
I hope that you'll check in soon. The desire to return to a safe time in the past is normal and comforting, but planning suicide isn't and I'm sure that you know that.
Call back...
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Hi Ciderguy.
I'm sorry I said that but I'm not doing well under the barrage of triggering I'm getting here. They are just biding their time until I do something drastic. I can't take it anymore. Even with earplugs and the tinny sounding music on my phone, plus the TV on, they are doing it pretty loudly and even if I don't hear it clearly I know they did it. Sometimes I'm able to cast it aside (my physical reaction) but most of the time I'm not able to, and I'm going to have to call the police. I don't know what else I can do. But they'll probably want me to go inpatient. I'm not sure I'd be admitted. I just don't care to go.
As much as I wish this were all over, I don't have a method that doesn't scare me too much. I've thought of a few but I don't actually want to go through with them. I'd like to be at the destination without the rough travel to get there.
I'm glad you got your security system set up! That must be pretty neat. I've seen devs advertise their spyware for both Android and iPhone. I hope you'll find one you like.