Sorry in advance for the long post.

I've had a few depression bouts in my life so I believe it is situational. This bout started of with more anxiety and fear about finances. Despite feeling much better about that and working things out, I still remain depressed.

I thought I was getting better as I was doing very well at nights. I was actually looking forward to this past weekend as we had a b-day party to go to for our daughters friend (felt I could get out and see some people) and I was going to my Dads and thought it would be a good opportunity to talk finances, feel better, etc. However both things didn't make me feel as good as I had hoped.

I've really struggled today. Taking my daughter sliding felt I wasn't there having fun, can't eat our favorite Sunday supper, tasks feel hard to do, not in a good mood tonight, etc.

I'm really struggling this depression episode as i've got a family that depends on me. I feel like I am not there.

I started my Zoloft again last week (I had been weaning off symptom free for the past year down to once every four days) but found myself more anxious so I stopped it for a couple of days, took another 50mg Friday and nothing since then. I'm not sure if that fact that I am yo-yoing with the meds is making me go like this.

Anyway, i'm frustrated as I can't have bad full days. Is this all part of the recovery (i.e. some bad days some good)? I can't see my doctor until next Wednesday but think I should just do 50mg/day until I see him. That should be ok right?

Sorry all. Thanks,
Adam