I'm struggling feeling the same way, though I'm not an adult yet. I'm 17.

I've realized too that the details of my flashbacks are very vivid. I can smell the smells, I know how exactly my body is positioned, and how far certain...objects are from me. And when for a very long time when people bring up child sexual abuse, even mention it, I get a specific image in my head which resembles the content of these flashbacks. It's disturbing.