Thanks. You're right. I finally got a working number from my mom, left him a message, and got a call back from him. He's crying, I'm crying, it's a mess.

And, now I'm confused... because he got off the phone to run into a store and buy coffee, and was going to call me right back, and that was 20 minutes ago. And, I'm exhausted and have only had one meal today and am getting over being sick, and I don't know what's going on with him.

I don't understand what's going on with his parole, his story is completely convoluted. He lost his job (roofing) despite knowing the owner of the company forever b/c the owner was aware and a customer was complaining about the quality of work and he decided to talk to the guy that was doing bad work. He lost his housing... I don't know why. Some guy that he's known for 20 years and was renting a room from "lost" the money and they couldn't make rent? He was staying in a hotel with 2 other people, paying by the week, by one of those people (the other guy's girlfriend) left them and they couldn't pay and he ended up on the streets again with no address and no job, so he's in violation of his probation and is turning himself in tomorrow night. He thinks he'll be back in jail tomorrow night for a couple weeks.

I don't know what I can do to help, other than listen and cry with him.

I hate that I can't make sense of half of what he says, and that I don't know what to believe. I want to be supportive, but when he's all over the place, it's hard not to assume he's back on drugs. When he tells me he's going to call me back, and 30 minutes later I still haven't heard anything, it's hard to believe he's not on drugs.

I wish I could do more to help, but I have no clue what to do. I struggle with my own life.

Ugh. Thanks for listening, and you were exactly right I think... in the midst of all the crying he told me that he feels like a major f***-up and hates that he's disappointing everyone.