That was your experience with it. You were lucky enough to not go full blown psychotic from extended abuse. I've never done it, but believe me meth can definitely make a person go "out of their mind". When people go into meth psychosis (which is pretty common), they very seriously are unaware of their actions. I mean honestly I've heard stories about people doing even more outrageous stuff because of meth abuse, if you can even imagine that People have literally self amputated their own appendages because of meth induced delusions. It's about the worst drug on the face of the earth. Honestly, I've messed with different things myself in the past......... but thank God I had enough sense to stay away from that stuff. It's bad, it's real bad. Basically, extended abuse creates a similar mental state that's similar to having a dream while awake. You have fully realistic hallucinations that you can't tell from reality, and you behave in similar ways to the way your dreaming self behaves. The level of terrifying mental ****ery is truly beyond comprehension. Don't ever touch the stuff again, no matter what.