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Originally Posted by BreakForTheLight
You're agoraphobic but you want to go to Vegas on your own? You think that would be a good idea?
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Nope. And,i was just about to post in here that I changed my mind about it anyways. I have traveled alone with my agoraphobia before. They were my biggest overcoming agoraphobia accomplishments but measures were taken such as making sure it's a short trip,i have a support person who i keep in contact with,I do lots and lots of research ahead of time,i pray and do affirmations ahead of time ensuring all goes well. Once,there wasn't any issues and i handled it really well and another time I did have a panic attack but my support person stayed with me on the phone and helped me until we got it figured out and worse come to worst,he would've had to drive and get me! He would've killed me for that,but he is the only person who really knows and understands my anxiety issues. Obviously,i have to do things others don't and cover it up because i'm not going to tell them the truth because it'd be embarrassing so for example,i didn't take a train in one place,but instead would cab it which costs more,but with my issue is safer.
So,yes,i HAVE traveled alone but not often,and they were considering the biggest accomplishments of my overcoming agoraphobia. I had thought once i did things like that,it'd inspire me more back home to do more again and be more confident and for one trip,it kinda did and back home,i took more risks a little bigger,but the other trip,well i had other incidents happen after that sort of put me back into my shell more and more and my agoraphobia got worse again. Then,i started having panic attacks which i believe was something telling me to make life changes to overcome the agoraphobia since i was at a point where i was kind of getting lazy for overcoming from fear and not really taking many steps anymore. Then,emotional craziness came into my life and i've been inspired from that and the panic attacks to start to take bigger steps again and am currently trying to get a liscense and want to learn to ride a bike,for example. I also told a guy that liked me that i ended up liking too that i have agoraphobia which was hugeee for me. And,he didn't judge me but said he'd help me and take care of me and teach me. So,someone knowing some personal things about me not many know was big for me. I wanted to take a trip and still do but i don't think im ready,especially since things in my life are still not quite stable and ill need that if i'm going to try going out of town alone again. I don't want my travel funds to expire without use though so need to figure something out. I may try to do business trip instead which is still traveling alone but might be a little safer feeling. I'm a very ambitious person. My agoraphobia is a paradox to my ambition. People who don't know me would never guess i have agoraphobia. It's always been my big secret.