I like my T, I feel I could open up to her, but a chance would be a fine thing!

Things are very stressful at the moment and every week there is something else going on that takes the focus off why I went to see T in the first place!

Today we had 3 conversations out of the 9 I NEEDed to have and 1 especially. But we ran out of time- again.

Another week, and there is something big going on, on Wednesday that will be extremely hard for me- so we will end up discussing that next Monday- and that is how it will go- the trauma stuff, the stuff that keeps me up at night and invades my mind without warning will still be there. It feels like it will always be there as it won't get worked on.

13 years I've been trying to get help for the trauma and I've never actually managed to see someone long enough or had a quiet enough period in my life to do what is needed.

It's frustrating

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