I was thinking a lot recently I want someone to replace my mom as in a specific quality my mom has I don't ever get I need. She doesn't do it much but I really need someone with patience just patience and someone who listens and just tells me I did something right.

My mom is like the last person who has been my emotional life rock and motivation. I wouldn't be very certain without her. Yeah I'd be strong but just very quickly isolated more because people are too harsh and mean and never have something good to say and act childish and selfish around me. I just wish it stop. But it won't I just wanted to feel appreciated. I would be independently self reliant on everything else like I am almost now except that part why that. It's a need not a want. I won't get it from people and learned early on I wasn't appreciated or loved enough my mom knows that. She feels guilty takes it out on herself and I great her how I wish she treat me I treat people I like this way and everyone just with patience I'm not a push over stupid ignorant people who are jerks push my boundaries because they confuse my kindness and patience as weakness. I want to trust someone to be dependable not all the time but if I needed to feel I needed nurturing because I can't lie it's what's been apart of me since ever I can't be ashamed or hide it. I just need the right person to just listen to me for specific times not a lot though. I rather be respectful of their space if they don't want to. I won't make them I would like to if they did when I need it.