Well, it would be easy to believe with the job I have. Plenty of people have quit out of boredom, but I don't get it. It's pretty easy. It's detail-oriented, which is usually my strong suit: making sure buttons are undone, pockets are emptied, stains are treated, garments properly described in the computer, tagged with relevant instructions, and put in the proper bags. I thrive on this. And it's not too boring, because in downtime I have a computer. Almost all of my posts on here are made while I'm at work.
I actually like this job better than any I've ever had. I deal with people less frequently, at least in person. I work alone, which I like. I don't think it's the job that's the problem, though my boyfriend has suggested the same, only because I'm so much less depressed and anxious at home. I'm not agoraphobic or anything, but lately I just want to stay at home all the time. It just feels safe. I know what to expect, I don't have to worry about problems and conflicts. If I do start to feel bad, I have plenty of things to distract me, or at worst, I can go to sleep.

Anyway, I turned 25 in November. I've suspected for a couple years that some of my problem may be hormonal. I most likely have PCOS; doctors have observed excess fluid that suggests I had recently ruptured ovarian cysts, not to mention the softball-sized hemorrhagic cyst I got when I was 17. I've also tested slightly above the female norms for testosterone. I do know for a fact I have a defect in the MTHFR gene, which makes it hard for me to absorb B vitamins.
But all this I know from years ago. I've been on three-month birth control cycles for years, to reduce cysts and the like. I have noticed that I feel more depressed when I stop taking birth control, which does make me wonder if hormones don't play a large part.
Unfortunately, most B vitamins are not covered on my insurance, as they're considered supplements. I've heard of Deplin being used as an anti-depressant, but almost no insurance companies cover it yet. I do have a B-100 complex, but I just found out it has the wrong kind of B12 and I'm probably still not absorbing enough.

I haven't had any thorough work-ups recently, neither blood work or psychological eval. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist, the first since I was around 18, on March 3rd. That was the soonest they could get me in, and there are no other providers covered by my insurance. I checked. No one else that's not a specialty clinic that won't take me.

I've been on Wellbutrin at the same dosage for almost four months now. Took it at night for the first three before learning I should take it in the morning. After the first few days of taking it in the morning, I had some side effects of giddiness, irritability, excess energy, racing thoughts, and inexplicable laughter. That only lasted about three days though. Now I'm just back to feeling "blah" most of the time. Although last night and this morning I was overwhelmed by anxiety, probably partly because my boyfriend forgot my phone at work over the weekend, and I now have a 10.5 hour day to face without being able to contact him at all, and I know I have at least one unpleasant work phone call to make. I woke up around 3:30 in the morning, racked with anxiety, which, surprisingly [sarcasm], didn't improve in the two hours before I had to actually get up.

I keep thinking I should go back to my GP to change my meds. But I really wish I could get an evaluation first, and have a psych take over my meds. I keep going back and forth on whether I can wait the six weeks.
I have a LOT of other appointments I need to schedule. This is my last year with free insurance and I have hip and foot problems that cause neuropathy, glasses that keep falling off my face and aren't the right prescription, and a wisdom tooth poking out of my gums. I'm having a really hard time deciding which of these takes precedence. Today I'm thinking I will make a dentist appointment. I don't know how I'm not in excruciating pain yet, with tooth actually breaking the surface, but I anticipate the pain will start soon.

I don't know, I could probably get an appointment within a week or two at my GP. But at this point I'm not sure what good it will do. She'll either change my dosage or change the medication entirely, and she has no psychological workup to go off of. I feel like it will be another guess (I know it usually is anyway) and that it might even set me back before seeing the psychiatrist. What if she ups the dosage and it still doesn't work? Then it'll probably take longer to get it out of my system before starting something else. I imagine they won't want to start me on something new while I'm on the Wellbutrin, because then we wouldn't be able to isolate any possible side effects.
I just don't know. Will six weeks even be enough to get a good idea if a new medication will work anyway? I guess the safest bet would be to up my dosage, but I'm just not sure the Wellbutrin works at all.

I don't know, I have a really hard time making decisions when the consequences can't be known and could go either way. That's most decisions I guess, but usually I have some facts I can weigh out. In this case I don't know how to weigh it.