I am responding to the ativan question. I took it ever so briefly and was lucky not to get addicted. There are a couple of points I want to make. If you are having panic, anxiety, and it's taking tons of attivan to help then you need a different drug. That may sound like "duh" but I think a lot of the time we self medicate because we can't stand the feelings. There are many non-habit forming drugs out there you can take for anxiety. Ask your doc about one of the SSRIs. Also, you are not a hopeless cause. Indeed you can taper down on the attivan. As for shooting it up, well that's scarey. You are messing with awful consequences there. It is a very fast acting drug if you let it melt under your tongue. It is the kind of drug that if you are taking 5 mg daily, you would want to take 4.75 for a 10 day period, then 4.5 for ten days etc. I have seen people seriously addicted and stealing or forging scripts to get it. You may want to come clean with your doc and ask for another med, once that dose gets to where it is therapeudic you can start tapering the attivan. People with panic often panic that they are going to have panic? Make sense? You can do what you choose with this. There is only one big issue I see which is pretty soon you will not have acess to enough of the drug to feed your habit and it will lead down a not so great path in one way or another. Good luck.