I know how you feel. I like being alone, relationships for some reason bring out the worst in me. Some days I just can't be around people. It's overwhelming and I get very anxious and when trying to date I get panic attacks. I think I will be alone for the remainder of my days which is fine with me. maybe one day this will change but I don't think it will without major therapy. There is nothing wrong with being alone if that is what makes you happy��