It´s now more than a year since I was terminated and I still miss my former T even if the sorrow has eased a bit. I´ve experienced I feel more lonely now when I compare it to when I was in therapy.

I live by myself and I have taken the step to study psychology myself and after having my first lecture I felt so very sad. I´m very interested in psychology although the termination was very hard but I in a way think that perhaps it´s part of me trying to be "near" this T again? Of course she isn´t present at the school or such but perhaps my subconscious tells me it brings me more near her in some odd way?

After walking around in the university area I imagine her being there like if she was to be a classmate of me or something like that. Of course I know it will never happen but I feel strongly about it and my sadness really escalated.

Has anyone experienced something similar of perhaps has some explanations around what I go through?