Thanks. I most probably wonīt be within the field of psychology as I only read one or two courses so I donīt imagine me and my former T being colleagues. In a way I wish she knew that I study psychology but as the termination was quite long ago I know she doesnīt think of me that way anymore as when I was her client. Back then she was interested in what my plans were and such, now itīs more me wishing she could be someone to share things with.
My studies in psychology are not so much about psychotherapy, more of broader theories and such. But Iīve really searched for answers in other kinds of litterature and trying to find comfort in others stories about being terminated.
I think itīs hard to specify what those subconscius thoughts exist of, I know they are there as me starting this psychology course made me cry intensively when getting home. In a way I imagine her being there at the university area even if I know it isnīt true. Itīs so profoundly sad.
