I'm still sorry for you when it comes to economical problems. Your ability to think clearly, however, impresses me. Of course you felt down after finding out about the costs. That you see it more positively now, tells a bit about your strength. What do they say? Isn't it something about if you find a block at your road, either jump over it if possible or walk around it.

Good wishes for your success! May be this «block in the road» will turn out to strengthen your belief in what you might be able to manage, strengthen your self confidence and by so also strengthen your ability to cope in the future.

Future ?