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Originally Posted by gina_re
I've noticed with this latest depressive episode, my mind goes in circles about the same thing. How I hate myself and nobody likes me. Although I know this is not the case, I've yet to able to be on the other side to believe what people tell me. Does this happen to anyone? In the sense that your depression is focused on one aspect of yourself, or is it more situational?
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It's almost every aspect of myself and situations (2nd brother died in Sep, both brothers died young of heart attacks) and it's really hitting me hard all of a sudden. I'm on the outs with my mom too, so I just feel alone (even though I have my DH and son). We moved to a new city about 3 years ago and I still haven't made any close friends, just acquaintances and that's just due to having to meet my son's friend's parents. I feel like a burden. I don't even recognize myself anymore.
I used to be a career gal who was dressed to the nines and was much thinner (prior to all these meds) and now I barely ever put on makeup and I'm 40lbs heavier than when I moved here. Sorry for the rant.