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Originally Posted by scatterbrained04
Again--trigger warning
So I'm a 30yo smoker, with high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and pre-diabetic. Diabetes runs big time in my mom's family (my grandmother and all her 7-8 siblings have it despite not being overweight). The thing is, I'm having a hard time taking any of these health issues seriously because part of me really thinks like, "so how much younger does that mean I may die? I don't want to be here!" So I don't change anything. My mother has been lecturing me about my health when she found out stuff. I know my thinking is messed up, but I just don't know how to get serious about taking care of my health. When I'm doing well, I can take better care of myself somewhat, until depression rolls in and I wish I was dead.
I can't be the only one who struggles with this. Has anyone found anything that helps them want to take care of themselves (or just do it despite not wanting to)?
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Were you in my head??? I swear this is me minus the smoking part. I don't take care of myself so much physically because I spend so much energy taking care of my mental health. Then when I feel better, it's like ok you fat slob, now what? I do have my moments where I eat better and cut back on the junk food. But how long gone that lasts is another problem. So far I've been good, until today when I was like whatever and ordered a pizza.
However, being put on Lamictal helped me drop a few pounds...
