I know I've offered advice before, but at this point I'm the one who feels alone. 10 yrs ago (Sept. 18 to be exact) I was raped and nearly strangled. Lately, I've be so afraid to even step outside my own door. I do it because I have no choice (appts. etc.). My fiance is wonderful, but he can't understand the shear terror I sometimes feel. I refuse to let the SOB who did this to me win, but it often feels like a losing battle. My sister is back in my life, but doesn't quite understand, and I'm seeing her and her 2 boys next week. I'm afraid if I get a flashback, they won't understand - but I haven't seen them in so long and I need this "escape". I'm also BiP II and have had some recent med adjustments. I know I'll get through this, I'm just tired of feeling like I have an elephant on my chest everytime something moves or I have to go out. This is the only place I feel where I can come to where people will have some understanding. Thanks for listening.