What i'm worried about really is whether or not i should tell them truth when they ask. If i lie, I'm guessing that may hinder treatment. But if i tell the truth, I'm afraid they'll think I'm lying if i tell them I'd never act on such thoughts. I'm also scared they may try putting me in the hospital which is not an option.

I'm willing to do just about anything to make this stop except the hospital/ER.

And i'm just scared because i don't know what to expect or what will happen.