I have things I will take care of. My family history with diabetes is frightening and I'm very responsible about annual testing for that and if I don't lose my Seroquel weight or gain on Clozaril then I'll be starting Metformin to control it and help prevent diabetes as I'm 40 now and my family gets it between 40-55 universally. I am ok with BP and cholesterol. But I went 9 years without a breast exam and I just learned how to do them myself in September. For a while my gyn care was handled by the surgeon who did an initial surgery and then my hysterectomy and then since I don't need pelvics it was just inconvenient. And women who spent time in the school I grew up in have much higher than usual breast cancer rates. One of my friends growing up died of breast cancer at 34 on I think her 4th round of it. EVen then I wouldn't treat it. When I was on lithium I horrified my pdoc by telling her I would never, ever do dialysis. While that one comes from too much time in nursing homes watching people on dialysis it really worried her until I was off lithium. I could tell that any kidney changes were going to result in lithium being removed so I wouldn't make that choice. I am willing to do a certain amount of preventative care but not to prolong my life. I've had a Do Not Resuscitate order for years (affected by my work and a personal experience as well as bipolar); my driver's license says to do CPR on me because when I said I had a living will (a new question) the woman assumed she knew what it said. I drilled into my family members that my license lies.

But I've spent the last year wishing for something that would get rid of me without it being my fault.